bi bi coming bak in another 13 hours.... so happy//



hais... tings r so hard.... y mus they push me til i cnt breathe? cnt they giv me some space..... always naggin....... how i wish they cn really spend the time 2 understand me rather den solving the issue. hais...... hope my std cn help me.... oni she truely understand how i feel. if she cnt den death wil help me. since from my point of view,dad is always sideing my sis regardless she is right or wrong. bitchy girl. mum some how always wan add question wen i am pissed off den she lik 2 add oil 2 fire....... i duno wats her motive of it. cnt she jus shut up some times? running away from hme dun solve tis problems le. i guess dying does. bside the 3 of them is a perfect happy family. dad say ' i duno y, other ppl hav a son i also hav. i did so many gd deeds in the end gt a son lik u. tok wat say wat try so hard. no reactions. mayb they dun deserve a lousy son lik me... perhaps he is rite. i sux.... i nt a gd son. i always the worst 1 in his heart. mayb i'm jus another burden 2 him no matter how i try. he always tink my sis is the best.

THEY KEEP ASKIN ME WAT I WANT. I JUST WAN THEM 2 UNDERSTAND ME, SO TAT I CAN LAUGH FROM INSIDE OUT 1 MORE TIME.the laughter tat had been locked away.....


the problem is lik a cycle.... i'm tired of tis roller coaster ride. i rather it stop at the misery side.... den 2 b the happy side. cuz oni at the misery side i feel i'm myself. wen i on happy side, i'm nth bt a mask. cuz i cnt laugh from inside out.... if problem nt solve den mayb i wil jus drop off a building....