is it my fault? nw i dun even trust my family. i tok 2 them also xia lan xia lan de. y? cuz they aint worth my care or kindness. 4 wat giv them all tis wen they dun even appreciate me? haha joke! my sis? wel she is not a gd ting either. always wanted 2 b served nvr 2 serve. so yea treat her gd also waste my effort n time. especially my dad. nw he wan play cold wif me? ok fine. i play wif him.... i decided le.... i wil nt bak down anymore. so much 4 a happy ending. after tat incident.... dad promise me wat understand me more. spend more time wif me. wan me change 2 open up? nw he wan play cold n wen ever he tok 2 me tis few days b4 i giv him attitude. he pick on me n stuff. its been happenin 4 some time. i ta han enough. nw it's my time 2 stand up. no mre shitting around or b mr nice guy. all bull shit. nw christmas havent over, den my whole family say abt my father bday? fush man! my bday lei? all 4get le? nvm... i dun blame them i nvr ever had a family. i lied 2 myself saying i had 1 bt actual fact? i dun hab any..... they r all liers.... cheaters. lie 2 me my entire life! my roller blades they post pone so 2 mnths le. they claim they wil by tis december as my christmas present? wel i wil c abt tat. i chose the cheapest there is cuz i thought abt the expenses n i dun wan my dad spend 2 much.... since nw if they realli wan by, i cn tak tat 165 dollars de skate plus some more money on the christmas present. so am i rite 2 say i cn get a mre ex de skates? n nw wat new shit? my mum nid by presents 4 her colleges? 10 +++? tat means wat? my present gonna get eaten up arh? har? postpone again? til wen next yr december? dun by 4 me jiu say. bu sher der spend on me jiu say. go spend on ur princess la tis fushed up family zong niu qing nan!

jus nw i do hse wrk. i finish my part. my dad cme bak i stil cal him. he lik ignore me lik tat. bt nvr. he gav me the impression tat he dun wan reply. nvm. den tat door his room de is lock. i going finish magic clean le den he open his door. or i finished den he open..... nvm. den he lik sibei bua song me. cuz i no help him. den he stil say wat dinner u wan u come hme eat dun wan nvm. u go out eat is ur own $. he noe i no $ he stil say lik tat. nvm. den wen i tel him i go mit wx, he lik ignore me. sua..... nvm. he wan play cold wif me den i play wif him lor. if 1 day i get sliced n dice by those gangster, i tink it's my blessing.....y? cuz i dun nid face the facts of the family. i cn finially run away frm tis world.... tis shity world.....hais....


do i realli deserve all tis? am i realli tat bad? do my family realli luv my sis so much? i dun understand.... i went 2 imm yesterday. i wore singlet, jeans n slippers. gt wrong?say wat i dres til so xia lan. ltr go teck whye there sure gt ppl ask me where i from n get beaten or wat? wth..... i nt happy le. den i yesterday tired purposely travel 2 mit u hope 2 blend in n feel some warmth den wat i get? first ting u said isnt hi. bt is scolding? hw i feel sia.? tats y i decided 2 shit my gold mouth at hme. 2day tok 2 my family overall less den 5 mins. including mum+ sis+ dad. i tink i luv tis type of life alot. y? cuz i dun hav 2 hide my sadness n i dun hab 2 smile n lie 2 myself say yes it's my fault. wen sometimes it's nt?n smile wen u all scold me. i aint tat masked boy... no more. i luv tis life. it's me. if u ALL DUN LIK IT... BLAME URSELF CUZ U MAK ME LIK TAT. U MOULD ME LIK TIS BLAME URSELF!!! it's nt my fault. mayb u all jus duno hw 2 b a gd parents. hav u ever thought? mayb i'm nt the bad son. is u all the bad parents. hav u ever thought of tat? fushed!