another day in the shit hole..... hais...... idk lei i jus feel so weird. my parents say i been more proud? lik yaya wenever they scold me i jiu giv them a face? hais.... i bcome lik tat is they mak me de. i dun een trust them anymore.... my heart doesnt have a place 4 them. they think wat?me wrting a letter n running away is a joke is it? wth? dun they noe i'm crazi?mayb dying isnt the wronng choice.... i'm sick n tired of them assuming....


problem 1.
my sis she is racist. she saw another race person n did some racist acts n stil cn laugh at me... i scolded her. told her its wrong n she wil get beaten up or get scolded if tat person find out. am i wrong? no! wat she say? sry lor u wil gt beaten uo b4 me. i was lik wtf sia.... my sis bcome lik tis? is it cuz of tat girl she's been hangin out wif? she's bcoming more ah lian.... wth typical girl. startin 2 dislik her a lot.

problem 2.
my sis pass me the cloth den i ask if she can help me wash. she say no. den she giv me a veri attitude.... i was lik wtf la. i so teng u. by tings 4 u n shit . den tis is hw u treat me? help me wash the cloth cuz i need by dinner also cnt mah? fush la!

problem 3.
my mum, she keep assumin she is the holy nun kind of person. she keep thinkin she noe me veri well. assumin every action n motive i had. she was wrong sia....she dun even noe me. history is been repeating itself in my family. she even complain 2 my stead n even aka 'bad mouth' me. say wat i spend alot... say 1 month giv me 215 den stil spend so fast? bloody hell la. i sometimes bring ur princess go play arcade go eat chicken popcorn. all i pay! y? she say she no money.... ur bitchy princess say she no money k? keep say bank oni 11 dollars or 50 plus.. bt she nvr say her friend owe her money k? i spend on her gt wrong? nvm la i also sian le... duno hw tok sia.... hais.

problem 4.
my father gave me 50 bucks yesterday. 2day left 2 dollars. y? 10 is giv my girl cuz she by slippers. oh ya, i told my dad is i pay cuz i find it weird. n i lied 2 him 2.... told him the 10 is i borrow frm her 2 top ezlink. den 6 dolla 4 breakfast 4 the grand n her. 6 dollar on burgars. 5 dollar on lunch or is it 6? n dinner i spend actualli 12 dollars. i didnt tel them so much in detailed cuz wats the point? in their eyes... my sis is princess watever she do is always rite. me? i do is wrong or nvr gd enough. my sis always had a better treatment den me..... y? cuz she's a typical girl while me? a bad boi? or is it in their eyes i'm bad?

problem 5.
my mum juz had a long lecture wif me. say wat tis few days i dun wan reply her. 4 wat reply. waste my saliva. reply le so wat? i reply u nag more. i reply u tink i lie or feng chi u. i shut up btr rite? shut up u jiu wouldnt feel hurt wen i tok 2 u mah. bt in the end? u tok 2 me i shake n nod head u stil say i ignore u? mak a big woo ha! hais wat does u al wan from me? i wan 2 go bak 2 my old self. wen i used 2 keep everything 2 myself. trap in my own world... in my own time. i dun wan 2 b tis happy boi, trying 2 open up cuz his parents say he should. bt wen he try, he oni recieve more hurt den anything else......

am i realli tat bad? do i deserve tis shit hole? do i?life's a bitch..... so wat i hav all the stuff wen i'm jus alone in my world n feel so sad? so wat i hav my own great movie room? wen tat dark movie room turn out 2 b a place of darkness 4 me 2 hide in? should i jus die? mayb after i die, my sis cn hav mre benefits. y is my hse so weird, am i born in a wrong famili???? or should i say, do i even hav a family? or am i jus a comfortable slave? confuse n tired.